A testimony

I’ve not given enough credit to my Heavenly Father for how this birth turned out, which I wanted to rectify. I sometimes feel silly bearing my testimony but I felt like I should post this. This pregnancy has been full of anxiety for me as I really wanted to have a VBAC and not go through the pain of another C-section. Plus, I knew that I would be stuck with more C-sections if I had another one and that made me nervous about having more kids.

I’ve been praying the whole 9 months that I could deliver vaginally and sometimes felt good about it and sometimes full of despair. Well, when it was the week before my due date I got very discouraged and noticed a book in our bookshelf—Drawing on the Powers of Heaven. It was a book about the power of faith and how God wants to give us what we desire—he just wants us to live worthy of the blessings and to ask for them. Plus, we had exert our faith that he would fulfill our prayers, which required positive thinking. So I exerted all the faith I could and tried to think positive, which sometimes was very difficult. I prayed constantly through the days that the baby would come within 5 days of his due date. Blake gave me a blessing the day after my due date during which he told me that God was pleased with the choices I’ve made in my life and according to my faith, everything would work out according to my desires.

I don’t know where the Castor oil fits in to any of this, but I do know I had the baby just 3 days past his due date, which was a miracle to me because he didn’t seem to be going anywhere. Also, when the baby was in distress and his heart rate was dropping and I seemed to see all my progress vanishing before my eyes, I prayed that I would know the right way to push so the baby could come out. I felt that I wasn’t doing it right. That was when the doctor said we had to choose a C-section or the vacuum and I just had a feeling that Heavenly Father was going to bless me—I just needed to exert my faith. It was a hard thing for me to go against every single person in that room who thought I was making the wrong decision. I could see it in Blake’s eyes that he thought I should stop trying but he was supportive and stuck with my decision. When they told me this was the last time, to push with everything I had, I suddenly knew that I needed to push more from below than straight on and that’s when the baby popped out. I felt so guided and extremely blessed that Heavenly Father helped me have the baby the way I wanted to. Heavenly Father wants to bless us and he will and DOES.